Maybe IDK and Maybe That's OK

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:9

This is a verse I have held close to my heart. Many times in today’s world, we base decisions on the humanly and worldly standard, or how “success” is seen by the majority. I was one of those people.

I for a long time saw myself as the girl that was going to get her “MRS” degree in college, live in a nice and comfortable suburb of St. Louis and begin creating a family. However, clearly God’s plan was much different.

It is amazing looking back and seeing how God slowly shaped my life to reflect His calling and not my own. For example, I switched my major 5 times in University only to end up with a random degree of Organizational Leadership with a minor in Criminology. During all this change, I also had to learn how to navigate the struggles of anxiety.

God’s thoughts are not our thoughts clearly. Look at me…I was a young girl unable to sleep away from home, and made all her decisions based on the comfortability and security of it. If I had my way, I would have stayed in my small christian bubble of friends and community, where it was safe. Where it was comfortable.

Haha, but look at me now…Fast forward 4 to 6 years. I now live half way around the world in South Africa, work with ex-criminals and in impoverished communities where crime and gangsterism is a way of life. I may have not known 6 years ago that this is where God would lead me, but I would not choose to be anywhere else. Just shows the beauty God reveals in the unknown.

As many of you know, I struggle not knowing, I struggle when I have lack of control and I struggle with change. Part of my journey has been learning how to give these strongholds over to God. Of course, I have to work through these strongholds still today, but knowing them and coming to terms with the fact that they were strongholds in my life, was a much needed step taken.

I had no idea my life would end up in such a strange and unfamiliar home. I have spoken to you guys about home and how God has taught me that He is my home. Therefore, no matter where God takes me in this world I am home.

In all the adjustments that have been happening these past couple of months, I have come to love this song called ‘Maybe IDK’ by Jon Bellion. The chorus of the song states:

Although I guess if I knew tomorrow

I guess I wouldn’t need faith

I guess if I never fell, I guess I wouldn’t need grace

I guess if I knew His plans, I guess He wouldn’t be God

So maybe I don’t know, maybe I don’t know

Maybe I don’t know, maybe I don’t know

But maybe that’s okay

Maybe that’s okay, maybe that’s okay

Maybe I don’t know, maybe I don’t know

But maybe that’s okay

This fits perfectly with Isaiah 55:9. Maybe I don’t know, but maybe that is ok because God’s thoughts and ways are so much higher than my own. Therefore, as I stated in my latest update, it is amazing that we don't have to know the future because in God having control, He then has more power, which adds to His glory.

Love you all!

Beth Ann Bielik