Let Go
What is love?
The most common definition can be found in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7. Love is: patient, kind; it is not jealous, boastful, conceited, dishonorable, selfish or angry. It keeps no records of wrongs and rejoices in the truth, which endures all things.
How do I get to a place of believing in this love? Experiencing this love? Having this love? I know that it exists in our relationship with the Lord, but I have such a hard time with the tangibility of this. I can’t always feel and see God’s love on a physical level….How do I believe and trust that His love never ends, when I can’t comprehend it?
My blog today will literally be a song.
I heard this song and the lyrics just hit home for me. With everything I am dealing with emotionally right now, the good, the bad and the confusing. This song is named Pluto.
Pluto: Sleeping At Last
I woke up from the same dream:
Falling backwards, falling backwards
’Til it turned me inside out.
Now I live a waking life
Of looking backwards, looking backwards;
A model citizen of doubt.
Until one day I had enough
Of this exercise of trust.
I leaned in and let it hurt,
And let my body feel the dirt.
When I break pattern, I break ground.
I rebuild when I break down.
I wake up more awake than I’ve ever been before.
Still I’m pinned under the weight
Of what I believed would keep me safe.
So show me where my armor ends,
Show me where my skin begins.
Like a final puzzle piece
It all makes perfect sense to me…
The heaviness that I hold in my heart belongs to gravity.
The heaviness that I hold in my heart’s been crushing me.
I’ve been worried all my life,
A nervous wreck most of the time.
I’ve always been afraid of heights,
Of falling backwards, falling backwards.
I’ve been worried all my life.
’Til one day I had enough
Of this exercise of trust.
I leaned in and let it hurt,
Let my body feel the dirt.
When I break pattern, I break ground.
I rebuild when I break down.
I wake up more awake than I’ve ever been before.
Still I’m pinned under the weight
Of what I believed would keep me safe.
So show me where my armor ends,
Show me where my skin begins.
Like a final puzzle piece,
It all makes perfect sense to me…
The heaviness that I hold in my heart belongs to gravity.
The heaviness in my heart belongs to gravity.
This song just hits home in the fact that I feel as if many times I am looking backwards instead of forward. I tend to focus on things of bondage (my anxiety), rather than the freedom I have in Christ. “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10.
Life comes down to choice. Choosing not to allow fear and anxiety to control your life. Choosing to guard your heart in all things. Choosing to focus on truth in the midst of uncertain times.
Sometimes trust hurts, sometimes it breaks us down. God never promised life and situations would be easy. However, we have the choice to rebuild. To rebuild on a solid rock. To find the missing piece that completes the puzzle. It may be hard, confusing and frustrating, but once we do find that piece, everything falls into place and makes sense.
The important thing that I am learning and trying to stay strong in, is exactly what this verse states… “I rebuild when I break down, and I wake up more awake than I’ve ever been before. “
Coming back to love. I know what true love is. God presented it right to me with sacrificing His only son. I know there is no perfect love here on Earth, and I think that is my biggest struggle at the moment. I am seeking this perfect love that does not exist, except in Christ. I must “Let Go.”
I know some of you may be confused by this blog, but if I could humbly ask you to please pray that the Lord would help me “Let Go”, it would be greatly appreciated.
This all being said, everyone has stronghold in their lives that they need to “Let go” of, and I ask you this question….
What is it that you need to “Let go” of?